sometimes....i am really confused tat y would i choose to be in this path....in this path with u...every now and then...i use my every effort to do anything for u...but u seems not interested to know about it...as an example...u invite me to some function...but u din even talk to me nor sit with me...i know that there are lots of boy are flirting you...i din blame you for that..at least ve concern bout my feelings...that day i sit there like a stupid...doing nothing...

And i really wants to know what are inside ur mind...but i cant...i cant guess what are you thinking...i ask my friend...they all said that you are weird...and advice me to give up....but...there are no such word in my vocab..although i said i give up now...when i met u again..the feelings will just come back and getting deeper and deeper...i donoe y would i doing this to myself...last time i tell myself that i will not repeat the same mistake...but now i am getting worse...my love to you...is more than i expect...i love you more than everything.....

I really hope that somedays v will hold each other hand and walk thru the rest of my life..1 year and 5 month...is not an infinity....1 year without any results and relationship occur...can u understand the feelings?

U-turn LOVE

Its been a while that me...was struggling both in my mind and heart...Memories of you and me were haunting me every now and then...Is this love..or guilty...To all my friend....tell me please...

You know...every now and then...you keep pop out in my mind...Why din i notice that your love is always out there for me?? I regretted for being so selfish and never knew you were there...How would i know when you keep in your heart?? I have always waited for you but it makes me thought that i will never be yours...

Loving you silently is suffering...I wan to tell you but i dont dare...Loving you is so useless and my heart is so empty because i cant have you...I am wrong for not telling you the truth...about how much i love you...and how much i need you in my life...I just cant help thinking you every moment that passes...I need you just like people need oxygen...Ur lovely face always pop out in my mind when i close my eyes...

Keeping my feelings to myself is like a bubble of badness which are ready to be burst...Everyday i hope to see you as i really miss you badly...But...every now and then...since i find u back...i realise that the distance between me and you are getting futher appart...i dont know why...but i hate this feeling...I always imagining you by my side...This is what I day dream of...
I just cant stop thinking of you...Everyday passes so slow and sad as my life is empty without you...

I just wan to ask a last question...Can you be mine? Can you be my queen of castle?
I promise that i wont repeat the same mistake that i had done lately...I promise you

why those feelings from you come so late after so many things?

today...is the day that i explain everthing...using this blog...i hope that my friends...will get what i mean....

Why would love be so blind as The God had gave us two eyes??? This time...i really had hurt her badly...starting that time...i was quite confuse on why that she is sad...but after some time...i get what her means...i admit that i have a new relationship now...because...we did lost contact for some time...and this year is the most important year for all of us...so i decide not to disturb and distract you from study hard to strive for the excellence...That time...is really a hard time for me...because...u let me feel that i m just an ordinary friends...and u know that i would like to go futher with u...And that time...we just like disappear from each other mind...we din find each other...not even a message...i thought that u had already forget me...i was angry that time....and my mind told me that i love u but u dont....

Maybe love has its own temptation...whenever i see any couples walking across me...my heart suddenly broke...so...that is the time when i looking for love...can consider as desperation for love also...And the new relationship in me just form like that....

After a few months...i heard something about u...finally...but what i heard was not really a good news....i heard that u was on the verge of tears....and your hear is overwhelmed by a deep sense of sadness...i dont know why and what happened...i ask every friends that still have contact with you...and finally i know the answer...but that time...everything is just too late...i am sorry...

All i want to say now...I"m sorry for loving you...It"s not me but my heart who loves you trully and can never let you go...but what i say now...is too late for me as i know that...Blindness of people makes them fall into the wrong love trap as they can only see love...i am not that good as you thought i was...Never fall into love that does not worth your love at all...Loving someone who does not acknowledge it is a waste of effort and time...Never force a relationship as love is natural...We need some space for ourselves as our love is getting shallower...It"s neither a long boring distance relationship or a hopeless goose chase...NONE is good....

i know that sorry cant replace the loss of your tears and blood...But i really hope that the time will flush everything when next time i meet u...but i think probally next year...when you had totally forgotten me...and have a new relationship...

Judging people you love should never be done as you do not judge yourself for loving her...is my fault...everthing is my fault...i should not do stupid thing at the starting point...but i had no regret on loving you...just regret on loosing you and made you cry...A choice between two girls is neither good as you yourself are confused nor bad as two girls are good for you...

Dear...Be strong and dont cry over such stuff as it is now worth your tears to be shed...Love is really sweet and bitter...i din hope that u will forgive me...but please please please dont ever hurt yourself...kayy...i think thats what i could tell u...the 3 words...i will just keep in my heart forever and ever...Have a healthy and happy life...

goodbye